On Love.

What do you do when the one you love doesn't love you back?
I've come to many conclusions but the only answer//explanation I could accept would be to cut your losses & hope. Yes; cut your losses and move on ... and still hope (not hope for them to eventually love you too but hope that they eventually come around and realize how stupid they were to not love you back. Call it bad timing on their part, call it selfish, call it whatever you want but it's their loss. period. You must believe and know that you're the best chance at happiness and love for someone else out there. When they finally come around to wanting you, you're gone and have found your one person that makes you happyhappy. That one person who puts that ridiculous smile on your face when you're driving alone in your car. (yes the person in the lane next to you thinks you're insane but who the hell cares?! you're in love.) I can't wait for my moment. For the time when I look back and say I could never have loved him the way I love my {insert name here} now. That's when i'll be grinning in my car rockin out to all the songs that remind me of the one that loves me back just as much, if not more than I love them.

everything happens for a reason.

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there…to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be but you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

And sometimes things happen to you at the time that may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would never realize your potential, strength, will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test limits of your soul.

Without these small tests, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless.

The people you meet affect your life. The successes and downfalls that you experience can create whom you are, and the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them because they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but also because they are teaching you to love and open your heart and eyes to little things. Make every day count. Appreciate everything that you possibly can, for you may never experience it again.

Talk to people whom you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to.

Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you. Create your own life and then go out and live it.

Christmas Morning

So it's Christmas morning...
I'm laying face down on the bed, dreading the attempt I'm about to make at being a morning person. Let's just face it, I hate waking up and Christmas morning is the worst morning for people like me. We have to be happpyyy and say Merry Christmas and say I love you and get all excited over presents. Don't get me wrong Christmas is great; I just like it around right now, after I've had a cup of coffee and woken up a bit.. not at the crack-o-dawn. Anyway, back to waking up... I crack open an eye, ignoring my pesky little brother coming my way to most likely poke me or hit me with a pillow, and the first thing I see are waves. BIG waves, and driftwood and a small dusting of snow on the sand. Taking note on where I am, a hotel on the beach in Oregon, waves are a given.. but these waves are pretty much knocking on the window of our room. Our hotel sits right on the sand on top of a seawall. I sit up and my dad says that the waves are around twenty-eight feet, so says the news. Ahh, this is perfect because all I really want to do is sit and relax and watch the waves. After I grab my cup of coffee, the rain outside turns into these big fat snowflakes and another wave rolls in, crashing up against the sea wall. It's not even high tide and it's doing this. So entertaining.
This is why I don't wanna go home...

Justification

So basically, I'm nocturnal. Reasons behind this state of mine are pretty simple. I cannot sleep before one in the morning or so and I like staying up late. I have no idea why I can't, for the life of me, go to bed early and I've given up trying to do so...So, I've become to like my perpetual cycle of falling asleep late and waking up late.
This brings me to my blog title. Makes sense now huh? I figured that If I was going to try this whole blog thing out, I'd most likely be writing (or blogging..?) during the wee hours of the morning or... during the midnight hour! voila. There you have it.

moving on....

So what does a night owl like me do at almost one o'clock in the morning in a hotel room when on vacation? Well, besides writing a blog...
About two feet away from me, my dad is softly snoring and my mom is passed out and another few feet away from them is my brother and the two dogs passed out (haha! he really one of the dogs!) so being quiet is mandatory. Therefore, my music is down to a minimum.

Mmm. Music. I'm currently listening to Strange & Beautiful by Aqualung... really really good song. But even better is the sound of the ocean in the background. And these two things together remind me of a picture I took today... Four roses stuck in the fence at Indian Beach. Not really sure why these were here, most likely for someone who passed away.
Or seeing that this beach was a location spot for a scene in twilight ...maybe a crazy Twilight fan? hah.

Let's not get me started on those books. I should probably go fake-sleep or something before my mom gives me the "what-tha-fack-are-you-doing-up-so-late?" looks....

XoXo

Here goes nothing!

For some reason I have decided to give the phenomenon, blogging a try.
Maybe it's because I'm on vacation, perfectly relaxed with nothing to do, no one to see besides my mom, dad, little brother and two dogs (should I just say three dogs?) and no where to go, well at least, at night. (it's around 30 degrees outside, not including the ocean breeze. Talk about chilly.)Maybe it's because this place that I'm in, my favorite place in the world, inspires me.

Let's get to that, where is Katie Kuntz during her winter break of sophomore year in college? She isn't in dysfunction junction, also known as Vegas with her mom's side of the family, she isn't in Washington state where she grew up visiting her dad's few remaining family members and she definitely isn't at home. So where? Well let me describe it for you. Think about a coastline. Beige sands and a vast grey ocean with white capped waves, add driftwood and enormous boulders the size of small buildings declaring their space in the rough water. A forest of omnipresent emerald green stands behind you and millions of seagulls fly over head. I bet you still can't picture anything as beautiful as the world right outside my window right now...

Fine. I'll give it up, my little secret, the one place that will always be my getaway, will always inspire me and will always feel like I'm going home whenever I visit...
Cannon Beach, Oregon.

Gorgeous right? I know. I definitely enjoy waking up to the picture on the left every morning. The giant monolith you're looking at dominates the beach by standing around 230 feet tall. It's now designated as a marine wildlife preserve but not too long ago, when I was a mini-Katie, I wandered, crawled and climbed all over this thing; fascinated by the giant orange and purple starfish plastered against its rocky tidepools. So now that you know that such a beautiful place exists, I'm off to sit by the fireplace, sip on a glass of wine (I am on vacation... :D ) and watch a movie with the fam. Updates to come.

xoxo